Hey. this is my first post.
I've just got a question to ask.
i am unsure if it is tactile defensiveness or something else, perhaps something completely ordinary. and it only occurs on some days and in certain situations, such as in a crowded place, walking down the street ect. too the point... the only way i can describe it, is a physical discomfort within my own flesh and bones, as if a very badly made and fitted itchy suit, in which the only way i could remove it, is to disembody myself, obviously impossible. i should also add that it normally comes with compulsive tensing of muscles in odd places, like ticks, which i have read upon as a regular thing within dyspraxics.
so could anybody help me, perhaps if this is regular? and identifiable? as well as perhaps how to ease this very frustrating sensation?
Thank you
I think you've described it in a slightly odd way, but I think I can to some extent relate to what you're getting at. I've been having nerve/muscel spasams for a while now which are at their worse when I'm more stressed and anxious.
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I dont know if this is the same or not. However I dont like being in a crowd when im stressed. it makes me feel almost clostrophobic like I cant breathe. I seem to talk a lot to myself as well when im tense i think to myself out loud to calm myself down. to take one step at a time. to eliminate everything out of my brain so that I can be at ease at least a little bit.
I find then when I have some row with my other half. I just want to run away... I cant we live in the same house... So eg this morning what I did was close the door and put the radio on quite loud to the point where I felt I could not hear my brain think.. :'( its sad that this is the only way I can get my self to calm down.
I find when I am tense I feel sick my throat feels like it has a great big lump in it... I hate shopping.. I always try to go to the smallest shop nearby. The larger stores freak me out. I feel there is too much there for my mind to process so it makes me tired too quickly.
I cant handle a lot of emotions at the same time. I cant handle it. I feel so lonely because of this too. I feel scared too because of this...I left home as well because of this and have lost my family they dont speak to me anymore. They dont knwo I have dyspraxia and I am sure they wouldnt understand either.
I dont mind how I am. I still feel we are nice people genuinely and we have a natural ability to care for others. However it means i am lonely more so than others
Thank you for the replies.
and sorry for the odd explanation, i have never been good at explaining things, and it had been a stressful day.
yeah claustrophobic is probably the best word. yeah shopping is where I'm at my worst and when people are sitting behind me like in a lecture hall or something, but never when i drink. And yes when I'm stressed or anxious. i think this is similar.
Thank you Tara and Jim, i'll take note on thinking aloud or calming myself down another way. i also find fish oils help a little and ginseng helps process stress in a more productive way.
i hope every thing works out Tara. and Thank you again for your responses, it's nice to know I'm not alone.
I do get similar things, I'm not overly fond of being touched, I wouldn't call it painful as such just disconcerting, it seems to be more acute some days than others and also on the person I'm touching/being touched by, so in my case its probably more psychological than physiological.
With regard to being regular I think it may be more regular for dyspraxics than others, on of the common symptoms of dyspraxia is over/under sensitivity to touch and differences in the way we process physical stimuli.
tara wrote:I don't like being in a crowd when im stressed. it makes me feel almost claustrophobic like I cant breathe. I seem to talk a lot to myself as well when im tense i think to myself out loud to calm myself down.
Me too I really don't like crowds they stress me out a lot especially noisy ones and I've noticed more and more that I talk to my self , I found myself appologising for it the other day in the middle of a meeting.
Just a thought when Im in crouds and cant get through it really really does my head in... I just want to get out and away... I dont say excuse me I just sat beep beep... lol... it seems to work other turn round thinking im balmy and I go past without much problems..
I have read a lot of things about restless leg, and there is a form of it which I experience mainly when I know I have to conform to either sit still or lay still like in bed. I will feel something like a pin prick or itch on my arm which then sort of ebbs all the way out until it gets painful or intense and I will either have to voluntarily move my arm or it will have an involuntary twitch, the feeling or sensation which then continues to repeat several times every couple of minutes and can last for hours or until I move or do something else, break out of the restricting activity.
Especially annoying during long tests sat in one place, waiting rooms in banks, doctors and hospitals. Standing in queues I feel like I'm loosing my mind. Or in bed, or when my partner likes to rest on me and then my subsequent inability to restrict my fidgeting despite my best efforts to contain it during movies!!
I have altered my nutrition to account for that factor and increased my iron consumption through bran flakes and pumpkin seeds, but it isn't going away any time soon..
However it does seem to be born out of anxiety since I seem to worry that I will disturb my partner as she sleeps by moving in the bed so I try and stay unnaturally still which requires concentration in turn causes the twitchies to occur and worsen the anxiety and then I just have to slide out of bed and find something to do in the mean time until it goes away so I can come back and fall straight asleep before the twitchies happen again
hi
i think u feel some comfortless in your life. i think you can do anything in better way. just trying to need starts. life is very perfect and easy but just understand. with best wishes. thanks
I know what you mean about being uncomfortable.
The muscles in my stomach contract and I start to play with my hands and shake a bit and get weepy and feel pathetic and useless if I don't understand something or am in a new situation or have made something seem far scarier than it is (e.g. I couldn't use the telephone at work for ages because I had made it into this terrifying thing in my head where I would be in so much trouble if I got it wrong. Thankfully I managed to get over that when I realised how no one cares about doing things correctly or well at my work.)
I have a little brother (2 years younger than me, who has recently been diagnosed as Aspergers) who just didn't understand why I would cry over little things and get so worked up. He was never really polite about his confusion either which always made me feel so much worse and more pathetic since your family are supposed to support you and such.
Don't know if this helps, but it's good to have people who may understand.
