Re introduction: out the other end.

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Re introduction: out the other end.

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Hello.

I though I'd reintroduce myself.

well, I'm out the other end of University, with an M.A. (whistle) and I never bothered go to get tested for dyspraxia in the end.
It's not that I wasn't bothered, it's that I decided to be positive and soldier through and though to hell with getting diagnosis for things: in the old days I'd just be called feather-headed and that would be it. plus in the back of my head I was thinking maybe if I stay long enough needing to think actively, write and memorize, I'll get back to where I would be and that my "dispraxia" would turn out to be just laziness, or internet paranoia or whatever else.

I'm currently waiting for my job to start, and I'm rubbing pennies together until then (almost literally), but in general I;m mostly content in life except for this issue.

in the past few years I have made quite an alarming few observations (in my mind anyways) about the state of my "condition" which if it is dyspraxia, would be actually be a relief!!
I shall run these by some of you in the know perhaps in another forum.
I feel the reason I returned here was because I'm now in a position I feel where this has been put on the back boiler for too long. There is something there, and I can't keep taking the bullet and saying to people "Sorry, I'm just that much of an idiot" to people, especially now in my professional capacity.


I've started Taichi lessons again too; it's great for balance.

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Hi! I can relate to a lot of that. I got an assessment because, too, felt I could no longer keep saying to myself as well as others that I've ****** everything up again.
My diagnosis has allowed me to forgive myself a bit more for things I have no or little control over. I have started paid work and am not allowing myself to feel pressured into being a full time anything (yet, anyway!). I am exploring creative work and self-employment (something I've actually been forced into recently by one of my employers) and 'portfolio' working, which is really just a fancy term for juggling lots of jobs that I like - which is what I'd done for a while before my most recent major setback.
Sometimes I am scared there is no other end, that I'm stuck in this loop of progress and regression but the only way to find out is to keep living and trying! :)

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that's almost exactly what I'm doing!

It seems creativity and juggling jobs is a lot more manageable then some sort of 9-5 laden with all sorts of responsibilities and people who don't take kindly to all to typical slip ups and misunderstandings.

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Re: Re introduction: out the other end.

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bookgirl wrote:Hi! I can relate to a lot of that. I got an assessment because, too, felt I could no longer keep saying to myself as well as others that I've ****** everything up again.
My diagnosis has allowed me to forgive myself a bit more for things I have no or little control over. I have started paid work and am not allowing myself to feel pressured into being a full time anything (yet, anyway!). I am exploring creative work and self-employment (something I've actually been forced into recently by one of my employers) and 'portfolio' working, which is really just a fancy term for juggling lots of jobs that I like - which is what I'd done for a while before my most recent major setback.
Sometimes I am scared there is no other end, that I'm stuck in this loop of progress and regression but the only way to find out is to keep living and trying! :)
Hi Bookgirl, you're so right when you say about forgiving yourself. I haven't had a diagnosis (yet), but I certainly relate to so many things on here, it's amazing. I am starting to realise that I can't help a lot of the things I do, after a lifetime of people saying you're not concentrating, it's simple, you're being lazy ... not to be defeatist, because actually I seem to be managing things better now I've started to think about them more, and accept I may have a problem.

Would you mind me asking how you went about getting diagnosed, as there seem to be some pretty depressing stories on this website, which are worrying me. I went to my GP yesterday, she was very nice, but hadn't had an adult come to her with this before. But I took along some info from The Dyspraxia Foundation and she's referred me to a neurologist, and the appointment is for a month's time, which I think was pretty good on the NHS! I'm just getting a bit nervous now, even though this is what I wanted (if that makes sense).

I've struggled in a lot of my jobs - even though my writing skills are good, but I find it so hard to organise things, do practical tasks etc. When I worked in a pre-school, I got on very well with the children, but had great difficulty putting up equipment, getting snacks ready on time, etc, so eventually left. I'd like ot do more one to one work with a child or work in a library (as I love books!). I'm just hoping that trying to get a diagnosis or some help will turn out to be a positive thing for me. Certainly this website is positive!
Hope things going well for you. Nicky

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