Suspition of Dyspraxia

[Azorean8]

Hello, everyone,
My name is Catia and I come from Portugal.
I was never followed by a doctor or a specialist since I was a child. However, looking back, I realized that I needed a children's devellopment specialist. I was clumsy since I was a child and I always had a very bad coordination. I was also easily distracted and my mother kept telling me that it was my main issue at school. However, I was very good at reading and learning my original language (Portuguese). I just had a hard time on my handwriting. I wasn't good at all at math and I was creative, as I loved to write poetry and stories. When I was in high school I didn't study much but I always succeeded to pursue my studies. I was not dumb, I just loathed physical education. I was never choosen to be on a team. I was always the last. I was good at drawing but I couldn't paint with watercolours because I was clumsy and the paintings weren't very good. I could't dance to the rhytm of music and to these day I am not good using cuttlery. I learned English, French and some German very well but I am slow when I have to answer to a question that someone asks me.
Now that I am taking a superior education course, I'm having a hard time on my internship. The degree is related to Sign Language Interpretation. I always wanted to learn sign language but It is a bit hard for me to learn it because it is demanding, ad fast thinking and motion is needed. My internship is split in 2 schools and it is being hard for me to do interpretation in class. Most of my supervisors are demanding and they don't understand the effort that I am making. I have an English class that is shared with two deaf students with different learning abilities and I am not managing to hear the teacher and face each student that she is talking too. Furthermore, this teacher talks fast at times and I have to keep her rythm while paying attention to both students. To translate something to sign language requires fast thinking and I make many mistakes signing because I get clumsy. The supervisors have to correct my mistakes several times and it sabotages my work. I also have problems with my eyesight, such as a left lazy eye. I use glasses but It doens't make everyting better.
I have five siblings and I grew up poor. I didn't have severe learning disabilities and no one understood that I needed help. So when I became and adult, it was really hard to work with people and to do a good job, managing time and the chores. I took care of the elderly and it was hard to do a diaper and to work with other colleagues. Fortunately, some of them were friendly and patient.
It is hard to try to live a normal life always struggling. It it a huge weight to carry, mentally and emotionaly.

[Tom fod]

Hello, everyone,
My name is Catia and I come from Portugal.
I was never followed by a doctor or a specialist since I was a child. However, looking back, I realized that I needed a children's devellopment specialist. I was clumsy since I was a child and I always had a very bad coordination. I was also easily distracted and my mother kept telling me that it was my main issue at school. However, I was very good at reading and learning my original language (Portuguese). I just had a hard time on my handwriting. I wasn't good at all at math and I was creative, as I loved to write poetry and stories. When I was in high school I didn't study much but I always succeeded to pursue my studies. I was not dumb, I just loathed physical education. I was never choosen to be on a team. I was always the last. I was good at drawing but I couldn't paint with watercolours because I was clumsy and the paintings weren't very good. I could't dance to the rhytm of music and to these day I am not good using cuttlery. I learned English, French and some German very well but I am slow when I have to answer to a question that someone asks me.
Now that I am taking a superior education course, I'm having a hard time on my internship. The degree is related to Sign Language Interpretation. I always wanted to learn sign language but It is a bit hard for me to learn it because it is demanding, ad fast thinking and motion is needed. My internship is split in 2 schools and it is being hard for me to do interpretation in class. Most of my supervisors are demanding and they don't understand the effort that I am making. I have an English class that is shared with two deaf students with different learning abilities and I am not managing to hear the teacher and face each student that she is talking too. Furthermore, this teacher talks fast at times and I have to keep her rythm while paying attention to both students. To translate something to sign language requires fast thinking and I make many mistakes signing because I get clumsy. The supervisors have to correct my mistakes several times and it sabotages my work. I also have problems with my eyesight, such as a left lazy eye. I use glasses but It doens't make everyting better.
I have five siblings and I grew up poor. I didn't have severe learning disabilities and no one understood that I needed help. So when I became and adult, it was really hard to work with people and to do a good job, managing time and the chores. I took care of the elderly and it was hard to do a diaper and to work with other colleagues. Fortunately, some of them were friendly and patient.
It is hard to try to live a normal life always struggling. It it a huge weight to carry, mentally and emotionaly.

Hi Catia
Welcome to the Forum. Please note there's no requirement to prove or justify you meet the criteria and/or have a diagnosis to join.

The fact you're intelligent but still find quite a number of tasks difficult is indicative. It's very hard not to compare ourselves with Neurotypical folk and not feel we're somehow less. I'm visually impaired myself. Not being able to drive when some/many in society expect that, has caused me a fair amount of angst. Whilst there has been plenty of anxiety snd struggle, I'm v fortunate to be doing very well in some areas. (Less so in others but hey).

If you're not already found it there's a list of resources pinned in the Getting Help and Support section.

[Azorean8]

Thank you, Tom. I will read it.