Struggling with physical exercise - insecure in relationship
Posted: Thu Jul 30, 2020 11:46 am
Hi all,
I’m looking for some advice and empathy I think. This is my first time posting and I’d love to find people who understand.
I’m currently on holiday with my lovely partner in the Peak District. But I’m now sat in the car, writing this, whilst he’s off on a walk. I feel lonely and embarrassed.
Yesterday, we walked about eight miles along a lovely flat surface. So today he picked a walk up a hill in the Peak District through woodland. There are paths, but they’re rough, steep and uneven. In addition to my dyspraxia, I also have poor eyesight.
He can scamper up like a mountain goat. He’s incredibly healthy and runs half marathons with relative ease. However, there were also little children who could manage this walk easier than me.
I attempted it a couple of times but I was scared of falling and absolutely mortified that everyone else was finding it so easy. I felt like they were staring at me. I also hate making my partner slow down and I feel like it’s boring for him.
I said I didn’t want to do it, told him to carry on so as not to miss out, and returned to the car.
Is there anyone else who would feel humiliated in this situation? I feel like I’m letting him down and he could easily have someone much more adept than me. What’s worse is, this feeling of embarrassment will linger all day. I’ll be on the verge of tears for hours, thinking about my initial frustration and then of giving up.
Thanks for reading and for any replies. Hope someone else understands.
I’m looking for some advice and empathy I think. This is my first time posting and I’d love to find people who understand.
I’m currently on holiday with my lovely partner in the Peak District. But I’m now sat in the car, writing this, whilst he’s off on a walk. I feel lonely and embarrassed.
Yesterday, we walked about eight miles along a lovely flat surface. So today he picked a walk up a hill in the Peak District through woodland. There are paths, but they’re rough, steep and uneven. In addition to my dyspraxia, I also have poor eyesight.
He can scamper up like a mountain goat. He’s incredibly healthy and runs half marathons with relative ease. However, there were also little children who could manage this walk easier than me.
I attempted it a couple of times but I was scared of falling and absolutely mortified that everyone else was finding it so easy. I felt like they were staring at me. I also hate making my partner slow down and I feel like it’s boring for him.
I said I didn’t want to do it, told him to carry on so as not to miss out, and returned to the car.
Is there anyone else who would feel humiliated in this situation? I feel like I’m letting him down and he could easily have someone much more adept than me. What’s worse is, this feeling of embarrassment will linger all day. I’ll be on the verge of tears for hours, thinking about my initial frustration and then of giving up.
Thanks for reading and for any replies. Hope someone else understands.