Should I Quit, or Wait to Get Fired?

[aurum]

Hi guys, as per introduction you may be aware I had some issues at my work place.
I am in a very bad situation. Last week I have started new role, and so far its going really bad.
This is quite challenging role as administrator, basically I am chasing quality audits.
I didnt expect to get this job, but was told they were really impressed by my on interview and decided to take me on,
My first day was crap, I had to do signature on email and couldn't spell and administrator lol.
This is only a part time job, but looks very busy role. I cant manage to keep up. Worth thing my manager seems to be distracted too. Just because he was unable to cope they have decided to hire an admin to help him out.
So on my first day I had to make some notes and obviously couldn't spell simple things like names or postcodes. The other day, I was told to make some phones calls to senior managers of other sites and to keep up diary. I was learning quite slow, he had to repeat me load of things or point it with finger for example print, copy and or change settings, but when i was on my own I was ok. It was all new to me, like I had knowledge of using calendar but on google mail not on outlook, or using different printer. The last day of my training I spent with other colleague and all went fine.
So what is mostly wrong that i do simple mistakes, like emailing wrong people or not knowing how to set up bookings correctly, my manager gets really annoyed with that even though he tries to be patient.
The only problem is I only report to him and he seems to be impatient. Even though I have spotted he keeps forgetting things quite often or misspell letters and have very poor sense of organising. So imagine two of us working on quality audits , must be disaster.
Also I have noticed as I work in large office other people do not understand what I am doing there. I am sure they think I am stupid as I cant do even simple things.
I am sure management is really disappointed as I looked quite promising on interview and now struggle with even basic tasks. Manager from my previous role had also mentioned I am doing quite well on interviews. Now i feel like I have told lies all over.

The next thing I am planning to do is to speak to an account manager to let her know I am leaving, Not sure shall I tell about dyspraxia or shall I just leave and say nothing?

My main worry is will I struggle at other companies too? I always dreamed about working in business my family is very proud of my as I got that job, which is quite well paid.. I live on my own and as I struggle with managing finances it will be difficult to take lower paid jobs and this will also be a downfall to me...

I cant stay as long as they pay to me, but this feels a battle to me every single day. i end up my 4 hrs shift nearly crying.. I dont know what to do. More I think about this more worried I am more mistakes I do.. I am really disappointed in myself which is unusual to me as I always had confidence in myself talking about potentials and what i can do..

Most of what i have written doesnt make sence, but I found myself in better situation once i put this out..

[Tom fod]

Hi again Aurum

Sounds like you've been dropped into a bit of a chaotic environment and that is likely to be just as much the problem. i.e it may not be as much your fault as you think it is. If your manager is struggling to organise stuff, It makes it an extra challenge for you to try and carry out unclear instructions You're not a mind reader and you've only been there a week. You did well at the interview so you need to try to identify what is stopping you from achieving and how you can get your head around what needs to be done and your understanding of how it can work better for everyone including you and your boss.

I would be cautious about leaving if you don't have anything to go to, but equally you have to make your own personal decision on whether the job is worth the unhappiness it is obviously causing you. A dismissal is not great but then neither is a resignation unless you can make a negative out of a positive when asked about it by your next prospective employer.

Try to take a step back and re analyse what is happening and what is meant to happen and how you and your manager might get there. Try drawing a spider diagram or flow char to help you map out what is what, who is who and who is responsible for X Y etc. Ask your manager to help you fill in any gaps in your understanding.

Happy to try and answer more specific questions if you want me to. Equally happy if you want to send me a private message (pm). Please remember this is just my opinion based on my understanding of what you have written above.

Were you able to find the Guide to Dyspraxia in the Workplace and did you get anywhere with the Dyspraxia Foundation? Were they of any help?

[aurum]

Good news is, I just tried to speak with my line manager about this. Unfortunately he didn't take any note of me being dyspraxic, but he thinks I am doing ok, and this is just learning period.
This was quite a relief for me. I know its only on of the good days happened to me today and there will be plenty of bad days. But at least they are aware of me being a bit slow, and they dont think this can be an issue at the moment. We will see how it will go later on.

Another positive thing, I am gaining back confidence and this allows me to become stronger so it will be easier to handle issues I face every single day.

Thank you very much for support. This is really great website for those who needs it most.