I´m a 23 year old girl from Sweden and I think I have dyspraxia. I think I might have a little bit of ADHD too, but my dyspractic problems are definately my worst problems because they have made so many things totally impossible for me. I was happy when I found this discussion board because in Sweden we don´t have any discussions boards for dyspraxia. I think dyspraxia is a quite unknown functional disability here because we´ve got a lot of discussions boards for other diagnosis as ADHD, Aspergers syndrom, anxiety, social phobia and so on. Well, it´s nice to be here. Now I can take the chance to improve my English as well
Everything started already at the day nursery. I never played with the other children, I was always alone. The child-minders started to worry and contacted my parents who called a psychologist. The psychologist visited us at home and after I´ve been doing some tests he established that my motor acitivity was a little bit undeveloped for my age, but he didn´t react like he was very surprised or worried.
When I started school I was still alone. When the ohter children were playing at the school yard, I was standing by the side of everything, looking at them, always wishing that I could do what they were doing.
The gymnastic lessons and the sewing lessons was more than awful, but the worse things was all pottering: cuttering, pasting, drawing, painting, taping and so on. I remember the period in first class when we should build a small town with paper houses. This lesson was on Mondays and... oh my god, I was sooooo sad every Sunday evening. I was crying and screaming that I didn´t want to go to school next day and I screamed to my parents "let me die, let me die, please let me die". I did never understand how to build my paper house. Our teacher had showed us exactly how to do but it took a long time for me to understand how to do, and when I finally understood, I couldn´t do it practically. Above all, I was unable to make a stair to my house. When I understand how to do it, I forgot it immidiatly.
That´s my dilemma: when I finally understand how to do something, I often forget it directly after learning it and that makes me so frustrated! Why can´t I remember instructions?
I love horses and I was a real horse girl when I was younger, but my motor activity problems caused new problems for me in the stable. It took a long, long time for me to learn how to put the bride on and I couldn´t sit correctly in the saddle because my body did not obey me. I was fighting and fighting with my problems in the stable for 16 years, then I gave up because I get so many scoldings and cruel comments because I couldn´t do things right. When I did something in the wrong way, I didn´t always see it and I did the same mistakes over and over again.
As an adult, I´ve caused a lot of problems at different workplaces. It have been totally, totally impossible for me to hold a job more than a few weeks. The fact that I´m unable to do practical things fast - and the fact that there is a lot of practical things that I can´t do at all - makes people crazy and wondering if I´m stupid. They can´t understand that a 23 year old woman is unable to cut bread or that I need about 10 minutes to make a bed. In fact, I didn´t understand it either, until I read about dyspraxia. When I read about it, it was like a bell was ringing and I said to myself "this is me". Now I know that I´m not stupid or non-intelligent, and the best of all is that I know that I´m not alone.
In a few weeks I´m starting studying to become a TV-host. I´m really looking forward to it and I hope that my dyspraxia would not destroy this for me.
I´m also going to do some psychology tests for finding out if I have dyspraxia and maybe ADHD too. I hope that I will get help, finally.
Thanks!! I often have to take a look in the dictionary but it´s nice that you find my English well 
Sorry to here about all your problems.
