hello everybody

[appletree]

hello, my name is Mark.
I haven't been diagnosed with dyspraxia but i feel quite certain that I have it, it explains a lot of how I have felt over the last few years.
I feel like I am very immature and unable to grow up and I feel incredibly guilty a lot of the time, i can't read and write very well either, i forget things immedietly and i cannot read books I have to watch movies instead and i feel very dumb and stupid because of this, i wanted to read harry potter for instance but i tried and forgot everything that I read straight away
it makes me feel horribly depressed because I just wish I could enjoy the things that other people enjoy, I'm trying desperatly hard to live a 'normal' life, but i feel sometimes like I am not even human and that I am just watching life pass me by, I feel like I shouldn't even be around people because my memory is so bad and i feel very confused and frightened a lot of the time, I seem to get a lot of headaches as well and have been seeing a physciatrist recently, I don't know what to do..I feel so frightened.
I'm sorry about how depressing this post is, i just want to make some friends on here.
All i want is too just make friends with people in life, I hope people on here are well

x

[Liz944]

Hi Mark

Welcome to the forum!

[Creative]

Hi Mark. Welcome to the forum. You say you feel you can't write very well but you have made a very good first post. Maybe you can write better then you think you can?
I'm 24 and was diagnosed with dyspraxia when I was 15. I volunteer for a dyslexia organisation, at a toyroom in a charity shop and at my local library.

[The Fiddler]

Hi Mark

I'm not a great fan of reading either.

I did ask a question pertaining to reading a while ago, but no one else seemed to have issues with reading - I'm glad I've found a kindred spirit

[Shadwell]

Hi Mark, Welcome to the forum.

[scotsman008]

Hiya Mark, welcome to the forum. Im now 21 years old living in Farnley, Leeds. Just like to say that your writing is very good and dont be afraid to speak your mind, many great artists such as Salvador Dali painted their thoughts without even thinking about it.

PS: I know what you are going through as i was bullied 24/7 for 5 years of school because of my aspergers. I am interested in steam trains which many people think is babyish, you are not the only one in need of help.