Family Mess

[Loki]

Not sure If I'm throwing this in the right places but I'm having one of those days when things just happen... I just found out that my Nan is going to be in hospital tomorrow. Having an operation. And the "whole family" is down in wales to be there for it...

Now my family is a bit of a mess sure, but I tell them when I'm having MRI scans and things like that...

I just found out all of this by facebook...

I wont go into the ins and outs of my family hell, because well I'll be here for about 10 years and it gets more complicated than an episode of eastenders...

But I have a real hard time processing feelings. I can never tell what I'm supposed to be feeling or what I should be, what others would be... And now I'm just numb and I have no idea what I should actually be feeling...

[agsiul]

if it helps...my family also messed up. My mother used to send me big long rambling messages by text or ring at inconvienent times about all kinds of **** when I was abroad and then when my grandmother had a stroke she sent an email! Eventually when she didn't hear anything she rang. This is days later. I only checked my email every so often because I had to go to an internet café....unreal. Does your family up and land in to hospital whenever there is something like this on? How awful. I wouldn't have told family members about half the things because I was either told I was a hypocondriac and then my mother would steal the drama and make out how much SHE was suffering because of MY problem. I'd rather do without the drama and deal with it myself or get a friend to help me out if needed. Feel what you feel and don't let anyone else tell you how to feel. People would be horrified when I say things about my feelings but they are my feelings and I am perfictly entitled to have them.